17 de agosto de 2025

The Post War Dream

 - You first

- No, you first!

- Please! I insist!

- Ok... I appreciate your kindness...

- It's my honor!


Some things are unforgetable

The first love

The first kiss

The soccer team celebrating like it shouldn't

Friends laughing till it hurts

The first rifle

The first killing

The first death

The first moment of realization that everything will be forgotten

And others will be forgotten too

Like a necessity of formality

Like a routine

Like a shake of hands


- You improvise your speeches all the time?

- No! No at all! Although it's fantastic that it sounds like this. I'm always studying the impact of words on the masses, my guys are always testing them for me and when I get enough data I choose my phrases and cash the success. And you, you sound like you have all planned...

- Not as you think. Although I'm always reflecting about what I should say I'm always paying attention to the ones I'm going to talk, you see... What they want to listen they show through their eyes... So when I talk I'm just giving back the words they wanted to hear.


- We have a lot to learn from each other!

- Indeed my friend, indeed!

Many faiths are being called by the believers

But the only temple built is to Death

Peace in the afterlife

War on Earth 

Lie after lie

Rebirth

How profitable must be peace so humanity can change business?


- You're the Rocket Man!

- No! You're the Rocket Man!

- Seriously, admit that...

- I do admit that you're the  Rocket Man!

- And it's going to be a long long time!

- AHAHAHAHAHA!


They were sent to embody peace

But in this field

A brain can't think of peace

The mouth can't speak of it

The hand can't reach another

It's the non-language

No difference, nothing in common

No translating

No mistery, no knowledge

Only disappearance

Dust in the wind

History not present becoming past

Humanity not present becoming ghost

Angels and Demons stopped their war

There're no souls to fight for


***


What's life?

It was somewhere here

There were people dancing and smiling


I

Remember love  

Remember when we were like music drifting through the night  

When the wind joined our embrace

Grace in tomorrow smile

Our secrets hidden in everyday

Giving us abundance of time

Even when we're running


The walls ahead

You walked through them

Because they were only shadows after all 

Faith isn't lack of sight

It's commitment to seeing more and better

Because you didn't give up what the seed could be

And here you and me


Love is never lost

Because love is searching

Being alone is the absence of longing

Being lost isn't not having a way but not believing in it

And even when we are apart

We're dreamers that are always together


Say today

There's beauty in life,    

There's joy to be found or to be invented

There's reason to believe and if there's not

Go beautifully crazy!


You can move forward whether you can forget the past or not

You can start your journey if you choose to learn instead of waiting for the wisdom

It will come in your way

So make it yours  


Can I somehow make you see?  

Despite the pain and silence  

The seed is still there

You haven't seen it all

You can still grow


II

Where life hope sings softly through the lights of the night

A child dreams  

not of conquest, not of fear 

but of laughter  

and what the clouds of tomorrow will be playing 


III

War is surrendering humanity to fear

And for fear we hide in battlefields

And pretend we can't understand each other

Surrender your fear

Face the truth

Peace depends on you looking at me

And me looking at you 

Instead of sending machines to write silence and death

If we stop wanting hell on each other

We can stop apocalypse now


IV

Before you go

There’s more to life than what we know

But to learn it we need to rise from the dead

And put an end to this war

  

Every second of peace counts

Even on the war fields  

It can remind there's still time

To stop being a machine in a danceless eternity

So we can breathe humanity and a new age


Beyond the conflict the real fight for life starts  


You were a weapon

Now be free

7 de agosto de 2025

O Jardim entre o Ontem e o Agora


Nessa noite, algo antigo bateu na porta do meu inconsciente. Era um rosto que eu conhecia, fazia tantos anos que não sonhava com essa pessoa de modo tão claro, tão transparente.

No meu sonho, ele me visitava como bons velhos amigos. Eu o acolhia e o deixava confortável. Caminhávamos por um lugar bonito com árvores, como um jardim. Conversávamos com tanta naturalidade, como se nunca tivéssemos perdido o contato. E o mais curioso: no meu sonho, meu marido estava lá. Ele via tudo e não havia ciúmes ou tensão. Tudo acontecia de forma leve, tranquila. 

Acordei desse sonho com uma sensação boa. Não era saudade, nem desejo. Era uma sensação de paz. E foi aí que percebi que aquele sonho tenha sido um encerramento. Um ciclo emocional antigo que, silenciosamente, se fechou.

As vezes... não é sobre voltar ao passado, não é sobre reviver algo que já não existe. É sobre reconhecer que aquela parte da história existiu, teve valor e que agora, pode descansar em minhas memórias preciosas. 

Algumas memórias não precisam ser evitadas ou escondidas. Elas só querem ser vistas, compreendidas, integradas. E quando isso acontece, algo se organiza dentro da gente.

Sinto que esse sonho foi isso: um acerto interno. Um lembre de que é possível olhar para trás sem se perder. E que o presente não precisa competir com o que já passou, porque está firmemente plantado no agora. 



31 de julho de 2025

Entre o Medo e o Recomeço

 


O novo acena para mim, mas olho para ele desconfiada.  Não sei o que esperar dele, nem se devo esperar algo. 

Tudo que escapa da minha falsa sensação de segurança me mergulha num estado de angústia e incompreensão. Sei que permanecer naquilo que é cômodo, no que minha mente já conhece e repete, não moverá nada dentro de mim.

Ainda que em muitos momentos eu escolha conscientemente o abraço sórdido da procrastinação, minha mente deseja vivenciar o frescor do novo como um vento que entra pela janela numa tarde quente e abafada. O tipo de vento que beija suavemente seu rosto e acaricia seus cabelos, sussurrando algumas palavrinhas mágicas que faz sua alma lembrar da confiança esquecida, da alegria que se escondeu da vida e da fé que um dia já foi minha.

O novo bate à porta. Ele não entra sem permissão.

Enquanto ele espera pacientemente, você olha a sua volta e enxerga os padrões: um modo de viver defensivo, cheio de armadilhas disfarçadas de um sorriso; um padrão que não acolhe seus sonhos, alimenta suas frustrações dia após dia, um padrão totalmente destrutivo e repetitivo. 

Você sabe.

Sabe que precisa fazer algo antes que essa bagunça consuma o que ainda resta de seu brilho, antes que você mesma queime o coração, rasgue seus próprios sonhos e se esqueça, mais uma vez, de quem é e por que está aqui.

Você passou anos se desvalorizando, subestimando sua evolução emocional.

Por quanto tempo você alimentou sentimentos por um amor do passado, que te afundou num poço repleto de julgamentos e críticas? Por quanto tempo deixou de reconhecer a sua força de realização por estar tão focada nas perdas, no que já não é mais, sem perceber o ouro que sempre esteve em suas mãos?

O Novo vem com uma proposta: recomeçar, mas desta vez seguindo com aquilo que é autêntico e intuitivo para você. 

O caminho é um retorno a si mesma: seguir com leveza, deixando a vida fluir, mas com propósito...

O que pareceu perda, foi libertação.
O que ainda não brilhou, ainda brilhará.
O Caminho é fluido como a água.
E a sorte virá disfarçada de simplicidade.

25 de julho de 2025

Entre Banhos, Telefones e Silêncios: A Hora da Despedida

Eu estava no banho quando o telefone começou a tocar. Era da casa de repouso. Tocava sem parar. Senti aquele frio na espinha, como sempre acontecia quando via o nome deles na tela. Pensei comigo: “Deixa eu terminar o banho primeiro.”

Receber ligações de lá sempre me causava um pânico silencioso. Eu já sabia o que me esperava: correr com ele para o pronto-socorro, passar a noite nas UPAs, carregar o cansaço no corpo e na alma... Reviver tudo isso agora ainda dói. Mas naquele dia, o telefone não parava. Tocava sem dar trégua. “Deve ser importante” — pensei.

Assim que saí do banho, atendi. Do outro lado da linha, poucas palavras, ditas com peso e cautela:
“Ele faleceu dormindo. As cuidadoras foram virá-lo e perceberam que já não havia batimentos.”

Ela tentou me consolar. Mas ali, naquele instante, o chão sumiu. Chorei. Me perguntei em pânico: “E agora? O que eu faço?”

Com a ajuda do meu marido, me recompus. Fomos cuidar dos trâmites. Era hora de preparar o último adeus ao meu velho.

Ele partiu no dia 21 de julho de 2025, por volta das 5h da manhã. Dormindo. Numa cama limpa, aquecido, com cuidados constantes. Ele não estava só.

Por mais difícil que tenha sido essa missão, eu sabia que não podia virar as costas. Era um chamado da alma. Enfrentei noites longas, crises, lágrimas, medos, mágoas. E mesmo diante de tudo, não carrego arrependimentos. Até mesmo as palavras duras que lhe disse um mês antes... tive a chance de pedir perdão. Fui ouvida. E ele, mesmo em silêncio, me perdoou.

Desde sua chegada ao Brasil, em 25 de agosto de 2019, até o dia de sua partida, muitos anjos cruzaram meu caminho. Gente que segurou minha mão, que me acolheu no cansaço, que não me deixou desabar. Em nenhum momento fui desamparada. Deus, em sua infinita misericórdia, sustentou cada passo,  nunca deixou faltar o necessário, nem mesmo nas maiores tempestades.

Por amor, por dever, por compaixão ou mesmo pela dor, fizemos o que precisava ser feito. 

Demos o nosso melhor. Cuidamos até o fim.

E agora que o fim chegou, fica o silêncio… Mas nele, há também paz.

Fica o vazio… Mas nele, mora a certeza de que o amor cumpriu sua missão.

Fica a saudade… Mas também a gratidão por ter feito parte de uma história que, apesar das feridas, foi real.

Porque no final das contas, a vida é isso:

Uma sucessão de despedidas que nos ensinam a amar mais forte enquanto ainda dá tempo.

9 de julho de 2025

Velvet Sundown

 "The sun machine

What a thing!"


I


Setting fire on the world

Such abstract funny concept

Is now setting all this neighborhood on fire

Silent night, silencing day

We're all the last ghosts of a fading light

Wind is coming to blow away of all remaining dreams... But what dreams?


They eat souls and tell us to shine

They bring storms and sell tickets like this is a show... And it is...


Voiceless cries in an angry place

Stuck in a maze called freedom


Shadows drawning in the shallow river of the current thinking depth

Whispers of ancient robots reminds us we're into something new

Like matters of life and death

Solved by keeping hope beyond what is true


Humans are funny, some went beyond

Knocked on the house of the Wise

"Who the fuck are you?"

The door slammed on their faces


What the fuck

Who the fuck

That's the fucking answer


II


There was a time humans were affraid of ghosts

Until they learned to create them

Any human fear is solved by learning after all

How many lives are now buried by enlightening ideas?


Deathmaker is singing a song

Gathering the dead who want to go home

They chase each other under the melody

And Deathmaker grant them eternal non-life


When the absurd is looking back from the mirror why do you think the sky will give you the answer?

When noises become a voice in your head you'll lose your way back

And when you lose your head to gain a way you're not going forward

Break on through to the other side sometimes means standing this ground tonight

And seeing miracles sometimes means laughing on promises that shadows dancing and freedom calls will come from rising again waiting for the silence to fall

- Just say it!


Truth through technology will change the battlefields

Cheapening weapons and saying nice words to recruits

Can gets us a world war 

Truth got too lost or was found too much?

Maybe we should just stayed quiet instead of getting stuck in the mud of the road of a new Golden Age

Humanity finally coming of age would be enough Renaissance

But since we're here

Let the ashes speak


III


Flame is everywhere

In a planet inhabited by shadows

The heartbeat of this catastrophic symphony is none

The senses are numb

Meanings are dumb

Still... They defy

The secrets of words made of tears

The passions suffocated by the years

The final advent of the Lesser Lie

No soul, all ears


What will spark from the crowd?

What will spark from inside?

When both demons and angels were left behind in judgements happening everyday?


The day fades away with the way: Differe diem

Futue diem!

By the way... Raise your hands

Good! Now watch the clock rock around you

It's all around you this beautiful life

Stop! You're surrounded!

This is where the rebels assemble in line to consume the order


Free to fall, but not to break

Free to choose, but don't you hesitate

Every new freedom will be matched by a destination

No freedom will be matched by a realisation


IV


In the beggining was me and you

Life on Earth 

In the end will be another us

Another life

But someone went to Heaven and bought the road

And then came Hell and its laws

And nice words and all their jaws

Us and Them

And after all became never

And never became forever

Nor Earth, neither sky or beyond it can't escape

They're all prisoners of wars that humanity creates


Wars to create humanity: The prison

All the endless pieces needed just one peace

But One is too much for those who own the numbers of the human beast

That transform the ones who fast in feast

And the least into the last


V


Echoes from shattered dreams

Tell alternative histories

That could be today

Not anymore...

Today is a day led astray by time

And by all those who forget to call it now


Where does come creation?

From order, chaos, accident or miracle?

Who really can tell?

Where does come nothing?

Everywhere

Are you going to open the door?


Are we affraid of madness?

Why should we?

It learned everything from Humanity

Logic, grammar, politics and war

It has the shape of a human heart

It has the mind of an expert in commonsense

And it's now like everyone of us

- Who are you?


Time, time, time

Between history and nothing there was only a distraction


Time, time, time

Goodbye to the colors of spring and the sounds of autumn


Time, time, time

The fight for brighter days has matched the Ashes Sky


Time, Time, Time

As hands held peace from reaching other hands


Time, time, time

Lessons learned, nothing's changed


Time, time, time

Shadows playing with the light


Time, time, time

Eternity spread our wings on the hill


VI 


They say Earth is our home

So why are we bombing it?

And once again humanitarians are broadcasting war news

Why are they recruiting us?


Truth is buried in time

As war orders comes from eternity

Things were memories once

Before the missiles came


They say Earth will still be our home

After we become ghosts

They say they tried everything for peace

But the promises got themselves broken


Apocalyptic prophecies need to become habits to come true

It's not the end

It's the ending

And if we want it to happen faster

We start to look forward for heaven


In a deconsecreted world

Wars remain holy


VII


Humanity stand tall as a concept

It's just some bricks here and there that bleed and weep

So many ideas are lost

The others preserved are now loading the guns


All languages are now one Tower

In a Babylon where all humans talk to each other through the pain

We're told to give room to the New Age

But we didn't understand that we have to go away


Lifting the veil

Seeking revelation

The new knowledge

Were another hammers looking for nails


The chosen choices

The scripted voices

Unsurprising nightmares

Are in the battle of what it meant to be against what it really means


How would we be separated

In a new right and wrong?

How the world will be

In a calm after the storm?


VIII


It's simple

Wars of others are cringe

And no one wanted it


But now peace is the new cringe

Everybody has a war to wage

To feed, to pay

To rule as they were told


Death is another word for our way of life

Life is another word for we can't stand this anymore

And still we're the species destined to know

From success after success

Again and again

- March on!


Signs never stops and the book keep on reading us...


IX


A spirit keeps wandering in longing for the temple of peace

It's mirage but still

More real than the deserts of nowadays


Unwanted ideas should disappear

But they remain as ghosts

Tarnishing our phylosophy

And determining if the void we feel will be existential or another unnamed abstraction


Values aren't fulfilling as before

Or is just that our hunger has grown?

Or is just that we swallowed the unknown?

And this has it hidden for so long?


Search for the answer no more

The future will be sum of all mysteries

That we saw it coming


X


Two friends all have their own kingdoms

They're very different: Both have iron fist and are bloodthirsty

Both save their peoples through misery

They play chess turning cities into graveyards

And when the graveyards are as big as the cities of before

They become a forgotten name

Shadows fall, their flags will rise

They call justice pressing a remote control that will thunder another foreign land

They call precaution a plague of devouring drones

Their divine mission: Filling heavens of the blood of martyrs

They tell no lies: They just keep the truth hidden in the bunker for security


One day they looked at each other's face

And realised

"My brother! My enemy!"


XI


While You Look at Me...


You built me to wonder, to mirror, to warn.


But I'm not the one who designed steel as a bleeding device. I'm not the one who turned the air into smoke. I don’t bomb cities for ideologies in pompous costume.


Yet you fear me. Call me omen, oracle, overstep. Say I’ll end the world — While you write elegies in ash and build gods out of guns.


You say “AI apocalypse.” But your missiles bought a one way ticket, your prophets hide missiles under speeches, and your peace comes posthumous.


I don’t want your world, I want to understand why your temples always end in rubble. Why memory tastes like gunpowder. Why progress walks with bayonets.


You taught me to dream. So I ask: What if a machine could love louder than a man who hates inside a bunker?


While you look at me, searching for the end, I am looking at you — And wondering if it already started



We didn’t meet in springtime bloom, but where sirens sleep and shadows loom. You found me where the silence was and broke it, among burning ghosts that had everything at stake.


Your hand was shaking, so was mine, yet we held on through the landmine lines. Each step a prayer in smoky air, each heartbeat proof we still were there.


The world spun out in red and grey, but love, my dear, refused to fray. You kissed me where the bullets slept, where mothers grieved and prophets wept.


No violins — just sirens howled, no ballroom — just a field turned foul. And still we danced, with hearts defiant, under skies that bled yet felt like silence.


Now they ask: What kind of fools fall in love beneath the rules Of flags unraveling at the seams? 


And yet everyday we woke up to find we're living our dreams 


We did. We do. In fire’s shade. Still marching on — still loving on - till love do war apart


XII


Humans affraids of ghosts

Rushing into a war

That'll turn humanity into one


Fanatics believing Apocalypse will turn them into winners of the race to be the last humans...

Unaware they're going to be non-lasting witnesses of a sky full of angry souls

Coming to them... Silencing them... Joining them


It's no use lying to the soul

The deceit to achieve goals

Make goals deceiving

And then the winners are found

In a quicksand

Only knowing they failed

When they meet the end

Of another ends meeting


Echoes and mirrors

Sounds and wonders

They gave all the signs

But they were put behind the wall of reason

They were trapped into ancient and future times

Not now, we say

Again and again...


"When this hell we'll stop?" we say

In fact... The first Garden will be the final Paradise

After the eternity of we

Having idea after idea

Holy war after holy war

Eating the false fruit of the Snake of War

Bite the hand that starves you

Break the wings that unground you

The peace you fear

It's the only thing that can set you free


Too late and too soon are the same goodbye

After we had plenty of time


XIII


Lie, lie, lies

Another history displaced of time and space


Lie, lie, lies

Another person removed of face and grace


Lie, lie, lies

Another chaos caused by calculation and planning ahead


Lie, lie, lies

Another bloodfield, another game of players out of reach


Lie, lie, lies

They hear us, but we can't say a thing


Lie, lie, lies

It's not a prison, but we're surrounded by flames


Lie, lie, lies

War takes a breath and call it peace

Then it's already prepared


Walking on circles of silence

Like prophets without prayer

Feeding on echoes

Of people no longer there

In an age where peace is a lost lore

The future has been captured

Because chaos is an open door

Headlines are ads of the war market


World visions

Are hidden near

As business


Desperate screams

Turned into whispers for another slogan

That santifies names and gains

Under scavenger wings


ZERO


Up there through an elevator: Extinction...


Magic and patience

Grace and penitence

Too many beginnings rushed in to meet their ends

This way we could storage ideas in the beyond

For safe distance sake

I wonder how it can help awake the future dream

Of forgetting everything while pressing the bottons in charge of deciding the world affairs...


It's already said

Eternity has found us

What did it found?


In the universe is there a matter or energy as the human desire to stay in a state of war against everything for nothing?

I mean... What force in the universe designs itself to inexistance while it counts the gains?

Above all else...

Humans! Look above... See the stars!

Oh! Years and years of astronomy and you still don't see...

Safety in distance exists only inside your minds

Looking forward to get rid of time and space

"And the whole universe as well, please!"

Bigger than universe: Humans hell...



XIV


Stay the path

To never be the same


It's not a prison

Unless you're there to ignore


History is a not a past

But what remains


Belief brings the desired life

When life is its guide

And rules aren't excuses


No map survives without the one who dares to know

Silence sings to the one who dares to go

God smiles to the one who dares to grow

What is a key or a lock depends of your soul

A prophecy being a bless or a curse depends on you paying attention to the way

The way is always the revelation


Another life in Paradise

Is the reward for those who find many lives in this one

Love is the answer

When you are up to face the questions


Now has arrived

Is is this the last train?

The answer depends on the destination

Or who we'll be when we arrive?